thinking may hurt

...So I've been thinking. In the movie Gone With the Wind, the main character, Scarlet, abuses her powers of beauty to flirt with any man she wants. When she does marry, it is only for the money and glory. She has only loved one man her entire life and her best friend has married him. Ashley Wilkes. As Scarlet goes on with a husband, that eventually dies in the war, there is a man that has fallen in love with her. Red Butler. He is a rich man and does everything to please her and show that he really cares for her. She wants nothing to do with him. After her second husband dies, she marries Butler and has a child, Bonnie, and is pregnant but falls and cannot carry the child any longer... not the point. My point is, when Scarlet finally realizes that she does not love Ashley and she really does love Red, it is too late and Red has left her.

There is a man out there that I believe is my first love, my Ashley. I think that since he lives in another state and we cannot see each other often he has fallen in love with someone else. It may not be my friend but she is also not me. Maybe I do not love him any more? But I certainly do not have a Red Butler to take care of me. This other Ashley and I have been separated for 2 years and fell in love the first time we saw each other. I always miss him.

I tired dating. Recently there has been this one guy that claims he is in love with me and cannot live without me. When we went on a date we had nothing to talk about, he was REALLY boring and very awkward. So instead of stringing him along, I told him I didn't have feelings for him. This pissed him off. I refuse to talk to or see him. He has been texting me and telling me how much he loves me. Telling me how sorry he is for yelling at me. I did not tell him how awkward the date was and just told him that I didn't like him. Should I text back and explain? Or should I stop texting him all together?

I don't know..... sometimes I feel as if I think too much... and it hurts my head a little. This happens to be often :P

Living is Forever,
Rara :]